God help us please.....

Matt IS leaving in April for 1 month of training with the Army in CO. Then 9 months in the same country that he was going to go to in June. SO we are going to put all of our stuff in storage and give up our house on base. So here is a over view of what will happen to a me/military wife/husband/ children left behind over the next year.

One min. we will be able to handle everything.. no worries. The next we will be very depressed with no end in sight. Then feelings of anxiousness and loneliness creep in. Panic attacks will arise right after he leaves and the horrible feelings of thinking you might never see him again come. You try and keep yourself busy but you can only hang out with so many people before they need their space. Being with couples makes you miss him more and makes you feel weird due to the 3rd wheel syndrome. Sleeping by yourself will be the hardest.. even if you have lots of pillows. A woman's security that she needs will be extremely shaken and under attack from the enemy. Tears will make you reach out to God and he will meet you there in your room, in your heart. Everything will be peaceful until you wake up by yourself with your head on a wet pillow. Then it will start all over... every single day for the next 10 months.

Unfortunately people are quick to over look those who are left behind. They say " O well they choose to live that life. " How disrespectuful is that? Please don't ever say that to me unless you want to know what I really think. :)

I am trying to exercise every single day just to burn off that energy. So I am focusing on running as a hobby. This will really help! I am VERY BLESSED to have a loving and understanding family!! They let me come and live with them with my both my (kids) animals! God Bless you Mom and Dad!! Matt's family is very supportive and always there for me to talk to or exercise at their house or just hang out. God Bless you Mary and Walt. Thank you for all your prayers and please keep praying for us. WE will need it! Especially the next 2 months.. stress makes us very temperamental. Yikes!